Tonight, I had the weirdest symptoms tonight with my panic attack. I was coughing hard, and suddenly I felt this enormous pressure in my head. Almost as if my brain were about to pop out of my skull through my ears. I felt dizzy and I got very scared. Of course, I had already researched one of the many side effects of the antibiotic I am taking. Doxycycline can cause inter-cranial hypertension, especially in women who are of child-bearing age, overweight, and take hormonal birth control. Hello, I am like their poster child. So, I was terrified that this is what I had. I was about to take a taxi over to the emergency room because I was so frightened.
But, first...............let's consult Web MD. Ah, Web MD, you are one of the many tools of an anxious person's trade. Weird bodily symptom....better Web MD that crap.
Does it help? Well, sometimes it does, actually. Today it said I was most likely having a panic attack, a sinus infection, or atrial fibrillation ( which i can rule out with the knowledge that I had two outstanding EKGS done on my heart.) I'm pretty sure my panic attack symptoms have just evolved again, and have added new things to scare me into it's beastly repertoire.
A lot of the time, however, it is not helpful. Web MD has caused me a lot of worry as well. I feed into my addiction to know all possible outcomes when I use it, and in the end it causes me to worry more. I know I shouldn't go on there, but, like a druggie I come back to it time and again. I have even downloaded and deleted the app to my phone many times. It makes me feel better and also makes me feel worse. It feeds into my anxiety but also creates anxiety. I think Web MD and I need to part ways again, hopefully this time for good.
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